in deep trouble

I really dislike my pms. It makes me moody, as if the whole world has turned upside, the sun rises from the west and the sky is grey.

Being the producer of the group is really stressful. I have to remind everyone to do their parts and make sure they have followed the templates i.e. have to do constant checking and editing, on top of the weekly updates I had to write for them. Thursday nights are my nightmares. I am really tired... WHY CANT THAT SOMEONE COME FOR LECTURES AND KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON INSTEAD OF ME KEEP UPDATING HIM. Verbal instructions are forgettable and going online is rare. So I have to sms. My reminders are usually like this: Please check the lesson plan and workbin for your individual parts, prepare and ready for the tutorial. I admit I did not do my part, was lazy by doing selective checking because I was naive enough to think that he really check them *sob. I should have listen my brain. Hence I miss out certain details and ... well... just handed in the document and saw our grades went down the drain. Sorry, group, I let you all down. I am not doing my part.

food encounter

A highly sensitive girl I used to be. To be exact, sensitive to food. Mango, seafood, yogurt and beef will trigger allergic reactions, thankfully in the form of rashes. The worst memory is when I was 7 taking my first beef bite. I had to miss a few days of school because the rashes were horrenous. I abstain from beef ever since then. Anyway, why eat beef when we have chickens? I no longer have allergic reaction to mangoes, seafood and yogurt due to mass consumption of these food over the past 10 years.

I am going to a Medical Mission - Mongolia from 17th to 27th of June. The staple food is beef and button. I know those carnivorous out there already drooling over the images of fresh steaks but being beef-phobic it causes some worries in me. " What if there is only beef?", " What am I going to eat?", " Am i going to starve over there?", " Oh no I will cause such inconvenience to my team.." etc. Hence, I determine to build up my immune system against beef!

I decided monday would be the day to try beef because the following day is my "off-day". So in case of bad allergic reaction, I can go to hospital without attracting any attention. On monday, a brother sat beside eating his delicious bowl of beef noodle. The door of opportunity is opened. I courageously ate a small piece of beef. The next day, I am alright. "Is it too small a piece such that it doesnt cause any reaction?"

Today, I ate my first double cheese burger (with ah mah and her friend). Nothing has happened at the time I am typing this sentance. We shall see tomorrow.